Author: Casie
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Adoption
After remembering all the details of the rape, I wrote down the whole experience. Journaling has always helped me just to get thoughts out of my head. At my next appointment with Sarah, we talked about it. I felt a sense of clarity, of closure. Now, that doesn’t mean all of my problems immediately went… Read more
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College Part 2
Elisabeth decided to come up to my work, and I had the letters (at least her letter) with me. After I thought she had left, I texted her to say that I had something for her when I was done at work. I was going to drop the letters off with her and go straight… Read more
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College Part 1
After graduating high school, I wanted desperately to move out of my parents’ house, thinking that a new home would bring me a safe space. However, it was also drilled into me as a child to not let myself get into debt. So, I stayed at my parents’ house for the first part of college… Read more
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Healing
Around March of 2024, I decided to do something about my fear of the hallucinations and the trauma I had experienced as a child. I knew I was raped, but I never fully dealt with all the emotions that came along with that. I felt dirty, I felt ashamed, I felt like somehow it was… Read more
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Honeymoon phase
As mentioned in my previous post, Getting Married, sometimes my legs would become paralyzed. One time, a few months after we got married, my legs became paralyzed. Except a few hours later, they were still paralyzed. After two days of my legs being paralyzed, my feet started to swell from lack of circulation. We went… Read more
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Getting Married
While I’m waiting for the wedding to be here, going to counseling, and waiting on the lease on my apartment to be up, I am still struggling with these nightmares, daymares (they are more like hallucinations at this point), and depression. I also found out in after a couple months of counseling that I had… Read more
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Growing Up
In my previous post, The Beginning, I talked about my parents and how that influenced my attachment style. In this post, I’ll talk about my life growing up. When I was around five, my dad coached a soccer team that I was a part of, and this was a fun memory (until I decided it… Read more
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The Beginning
drawing by me If you want to hear my story, my struggles, my choices, my ups and downs, and maybe relate to some things, this blog is for you. Let’s go! Let’s start with my parents. We will call them Juan and Anne. Though both my parents loved all of us kids (me and my… Read more
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Hello!
This blog website is a running story of my life and the things I am learning. You can start at The Beginning, or you can jump in wherever you would like. I am happy to be able to share my story with you, and I hope you learn something valuable from it, too. Read more